...ever since I stepped into the school, I am truly disappointed.

Truly.

I did my best. I encouraged you all.
I lifted you all up and let you all down. Did I?
Who let who down?
Have you ever spare a thought for me. Ever?
Recall the times when you I shed tears because you all let me down?
How many times have you all let me down?

I devoted all my time to the team.
The team is more than one division. There are 4.
I could have simply took attendance and walked away.
My Tue, Wed, Thu and Sat were all devoted to the team.
Wed was specially for you all.
Every week I reject the badminton boys on Wednesday to spar with them.
Every week they asked me to go. Each time I gave them the same reason.
I cannot because wednesdays are reserved for you all.
Yet then some of you took it for granted.

I pulled myself away from your training even though I didn't want to.
Simply because I am no longer capable to teach you all.
You all have become better than me. Exceeded me.
I could not afford to waste your precious training time.
Times in the hall in which I constantly fought for you all.
Which you all took for granted.

You all have grown.
Sprouted your own wings and soar.
I couldn't catch up and was thus left alone.
Still I try to make a difference. To the people that I could.
To the people that I can still teach.

I did what I could next best do.
I turned to looking after all your health and wounds and discipline.
Things that I could still make a difference.
I Nag. And nag some more.
Ever with my first aid kit,
I'll come to do my little bit.
But still you all get the same injuries.
Still I was there.
Sadly you all took it for granted.

Traaining hours are limited.
I didn't want to impose on the training.
No one was looking after the C div.
And I was asked to look after them.
I had to go. It is my responsibility as the overall in charge.
I pulled myself away from your training.
And could no longer encourage you all.
Encouragements which you all continually expect
But never give in return.

The list can go on and on. But to what end?
There are so many others things that I did for you all.
Bus transportation, camp, bbq, collar pin, jerseys, monitoring your academic results, afternoon study programmes...
I do not begrudge doing them. For we are a team. a team of 4 div.
It is not only a team of you all. You all, which I took the longest, but who understood me the least.
A team which I stood by, but abandons me in my hour of need.
A team which I always try to get things done for you, but seldom do the things I requested
The socks has ever been the same.
One small thing to you.
Yet it means a whole world to me.
It tells me how much respect you all have of me.

You all ever took my presence for granted.
I put aside my work specially to ensure I have time for you all.
But maybe my best is just not enough for you all.
Maybe I am tired.
I am tired.
And now I am disappointed.

I had to say.
And so,
Let me now be alone.
For I am, within the team
Truly alone.

I have done my best.
And have no regrets.